So, over the past few days I've been in a very introspective frame of mind. My thoughts are always incoherent and potentially unstable at the best of times, but lately I've been deep into the thought of religion. I've read and reread the new testament, part of the Koran and even the Tao Te Ching (Daodejing) from the Taoist belief. Sadly, the latter text was translated and I'm afraid most it was lost in translation. I found myself relating to points in all three texts. Kindness towards the fellow man, humility and compassion. Offering ourselves to the world, the greater, to see what we can within this short life.

From what I've studied (I can just tell that this blog will probably be controversial) our relationship with nature, as mankind as a whole, has deteriorated to an almost token amount. We've stopped looking around and actually SEEING things. People never stop to look at what is around them anymore. I never see anybody drive slowly because they can. They want to drive fast and hard. Going to the very extent of the speed limit because they can. Get to where they're going as quickly as possible. When has slowing down life and learning to relax without a time frame become so unfashionable? When has "Fun" meant danger and risk? Is it love to let the people we love do that?

We all think of ourselves as important. It's inevitable. We see from behind our own eyes, not another person's.  Our life is a first person view of our own series of emotional paintings. The colors are decided by our feelings and the brush and stroke found with our minds and souls.

There are religions from all over the world preaching about what way is the true way. What way will lead us to the right end. There is nothing that teaches itself to us because of what is right NOW. Heaven. Onefulness with nature. Nirvana. There will always be a reason to act good for a reward. But there is no reason to act good because of the deed itself. To practice Altruism as an art, instead of an institution.

Life is like an art as fine as music. Music lets us show ideas, fancies, or even just our whims. It can carry on for generations. Something we wrote and performed for our own benefit can benefit the world for generations to come. Why says there cannot be some compromise between humility and reward? Altruism and self benefit? I guess there are no absolutes in life.

But I think we can find what we need to understand around us. Deux ex machina. "God in the machine". What is to say that there isn't something guiding us? Punishing us? Blessing us? What is to say there IS something doing this? I have found nothing to prove or disprove it. I hope that someday, somebody will be able to tell me what to believe. What I should follow. Even if it just them. Just one person. I would prefer that. Maybe as the Taoists believe, everything has a soul.

Now, sorry for that rant. But I believe I'll leave this alone for now. This is enough for people to think about anyways, I hope. Maybe I got somebody thinking.

Now, off I go to contemplate the world, offer a prayer to whatever is up there or around me and try to feel the rhythm of things, yeah? I'm sure if I get it wrong, some God will forgive me.

-Waldon



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